My Mission as a Writer

The last time I saw my name on the byline of a featured article on a website was a year ago, January 24, 2017 to be exact. It was my fourth article featured on candymag.com.

Due to heavy workloads my university requires and different hobbies and goals I prioritized, I decided to push writing and submitting articles aside and focus on my academics, artistic exploits and personal growth, and besides I was enduring a painful writer’s block, I couldn’t finish one article or paper unless it was for school work.  I knew I have to bring back my mojo and rekindle my love for contributing articles someday and I prayed everyday that I find it soon but no luck came. If there’s anything good that came out of hiding in the shadows as a writer, it was me shining as an artist.

As I was still feeling the euphoria of getting my artworks in two different exhibits, one was FILED’s Fun On Fleek Planner Launch Art Exhibit on November 2017 and University of Santo Tomas Central Student Council’s Limitless: An Anti- Stigma Campaign Art exhibit on March 2018, I stumbled upon Caring Cup’s #ArtForEmpowerment Contest and luckily, my artwork made it to the top 10. After that, I  monitored the online community’s page for opportunities to join their contests and hopefully win some e-coupons for myself and the chance to share my work to millions of people. As I was scrolling through their feed, I was enticed by an article so I clicked the link and read the piece but I didn’t notice the description attached to the link the first time I laid my eyes on it, so  I read it the post description attached and viola! Turns out every month they look for contributors who want to share their story through written article or an artwork in accordance to their Giving Journal monthly theme.  I knew this was my chance and I knew that this time, I have to step up as a writer again. So I grabbed my sword and wrote with my heart.

 

 

June 2018 Giving Journal Theme:

“It’s not what you have. It’s what you do with what you have”



People can possess a lot of things—things that range from material ones to talents, skills, and abilities. But what intrigues me the most is what people do with what they possess. A number of wealthy people use their wealth to help make the world a better place by donating their money to charities, others fall in the state of blindness for the treasure they have and eventually goes into corruption and greediness. A number of people use their talents and skills not for the betterment of their lives but for creating something that destroys themselves or the well-being of others; take Dr. Poison from the well acclaimed movie Wonder Woman, she has the skills and intellect of an inventor & scientist but instead of devoting her abilities & time to serve the good, she uses her talents for the wrong reasons. Point being is that how people use with that they have is none of our business, it is their possession & life after all and from what I have observed, it usually falls on either side of the good and bad.

I, however, am gifted with a lot of things. I am gifted with the burning passion and determination of an aspiring filmmaker, writer, and artist. I am gifted with empathy & compassion. But most of all, I am gifted with an immense infatuation for the arts; I am given the talent of painting & creating images and scribing words and bringing them to life.

Focusing on the thing I love doing most, my passion for writing started at a young age, I attempted to write several novels at age 10 by buying notebooks and filling them with words after being inspired by J.K. Rowling’s Harry Potter and the Philosopher’s Stone. At age 12, during my sixth grade in Elementary School, I won an essay writing contest as a first timer. Beginner’s luck? No. It’s my passion for writing.

When I knew I was gifted with such passion for writing, I realized what I have and what I must do in order to give God’s gift justice. I use my talent to inspire people through the words I write, but before I got to experience the euphoria of using the talent that I have to inspire and enlighten people, including myself, I had to endure the painful taste of failure. I lost an out of school writing contest for the short story category and it profoundly affected my motivation in being a writer. Writing is the only thing I have that keeps me sane when reality begins to get rough, it’s my medium to let all my emotions out, it’s the talent that I can proudly parade and hearing that I lost made me question my future in that field.  Every representative in our school won, except me. I fell into a short state of depression and anxiety.

After a month of doubting myself as a writer and brooding inside my room, I regained my confidence after one of my pieces got published in candymag.com on February 2016, my second article was featured on the same website on June 2016, my third one on December 2016 and my fourth article was featured last January 2017. What’s more fulfilling than seeing my name on the byline was inspiring hundreds of people through my words. I read all the heart-warming comments they left, I got a lot of messages from different people telling me that they loved my article because they can relate to it and that it inspired them. I may not own billions of dollars or mountains of diamonds but using my talent in writing to inspire other people made me feel like I’m on cloud nine.

Knowing that I have the power to inspire people through the words that I bring to life made me realize that I should use this talent for a great cause. As a collector and hoarder, I possess a lot of material items but what I give importance is the gift of eloquence through the words that I write. What I have is the talent of creating stories and the passion of bringing them to life. It may not be much but this is something that cannot be taken away from me. I am gifted with words, and I use that gift wisely because I know that words have the power to either inspire people or destroy them.

To interpret this month’s 2018 Giving Journal theme, it doesn’t matter if you carry  great amount of treasures in your pocket or none at all; what you have does not only rely on blessings that can be handheld, touched or seen with the naked eye, it can also be something that you possess internally or subjectively and it doesn’t matter if you are a gifted person or not, what you do with what you have–your talents, skills, and abilities, (and hopefully for the good reason) is what counts.

 

You can also view this article on Caring Cup’s website, by clicking the link here.

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Caring Cup #ArtThatEmpowers: I Will Not Be Silent

 

It has been four months since I saw a post by Caring Cup, an online community of the brand The Coffee Bean & Tea Leaf, announcing that they will be having a contest with the theme #ArtForEmpowerment in celebration of Women’s Month and chosen artworks will be made into greeting cards in partnership with Paper Project PH.

For someone who has experienced the euphoria of submitting artworks and getting them included in two different art exhibits, I didn’t want to let this opportunity pass, I was feeling optimistic and hopeful so I hastily opened my calendar from my iPad and set its deadline; at the very last day of Women’s month.

Before I submitted my lovely art piece I had to endure weeks of artist’s block. The days passed by until suddenly, the deadline was a just a week away, plus drowning in school work and preliminary examinations didn’t help at all. Luckily, Easter break came right after the last day of exams and I finally had the time to focus on my artwork. However, it doesn’t mean that I finally had the time means I can get work done easily. Having no motivations and inspiration hindered me from finishing my work, I created various artworks but I knew in my heart that it just wasn’t right; the piece lacks grandeur, it’s not picturesque enough or does not have a connection to me, therefore might not have the same connection to the beholders.

I was ready to drop the contest when inspiration hit me (I know cliche, right?).  Thus, my artwork entitled: “I Will Not Be Silent” was born.

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Here’s the story behind the artwork:

I Will Not Be Silent is inspired by Madeleine Albright. I chose this quote because women empowerment is becoming a very prominent act all over the world, and recently several movement has inspired women to come out of the shadows and share their story to the world, whether if it’s a good and inspiring story or a tragic one. For a long time women didn’t have a voice. They didn’t have a say on certain fields; they have always been looked down because the world has been accustomed to a patriarchal system. But now, women are starting to have a VOICE. Women everywhere are starting to get heard and once a woman finds her voice, she will never back down and never be silenced again.

Smart In My Own Way

It’s been a year since my article “Smart In My Own Way” got published on candymag.com. This is the fourth time my work got featured and I still feel like I’m on cloud nine every time I read my name on the byline. I’ve been on hiatus submitting articles on that website because I wanted to prioritize creating content here on my wordpress blog.

Anyhow, here it is. Enjoy!

 

“Smart In My Own Way”

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I don’t get how some people can be so good in Mathematics. They say that you can learn to do all things but trust me, I’ve been trying to understand that subject since I was in grade school. And yet here I am, I’ve been alive for 17 years and I still give my teachers a confused look—narrow eyes, creases on forehead, and furrowed eyebrows every time they discuss they explain something to me.

I started hating the subject more when it became society’s basis for intelligence. Somehow they have forgotten about other things like the arts, creativity, how quick your mind responds to certain situations, leadership, resourcefulness, and a lot of amazing talents and skills which I consider to be very astounding.

After four years in high school, I’ve accepted that I am not really good with numbers. I would cringe at the thought of solving word problems. Sometimes, I would just give up and won’t even bother answering the questions or solving the problems. I would feel down knowing that our lesson for Science is all about Physics; I just don’t get the idea of knowing why balls roll. I would cry after learning that I have to survive Trigonometry

I was losing hope and though I was still doing great in other subjects and maintained my rank in class, I felt stupid—like I’m not smart at all, like I’m worthless. One guy in fifth grade even commented on how bad I was at Math. Back then, I wanted to cry but now I want to turn back time and tell him, “Yes, I know. But it’s not the end of the world for me now, is it?”

And that is true. It doesn’t mean that if something’s weighing you down, it’s the end of the world. We have our own strengths and weaknesses for a reason. They build us and make us different from each other. We have to know our weaknesses and accept them, deal with them, and maybe even find ways to fight them. We should also be familiar with our strengths, enhance them, and use them for good.

I spent my four years in high school honing my skills in writing because it is my strength. It is my way of communicating my feelings and thoughts. I joined our school’s Communication Arts Club and even became the club secretary during my 10th grade. I love attending seminars and workshops about scriptwriting, acting, and movie making. I was our school paper’s managing editor, and I excel both in English and Journalism. I even participated in our Communication Arts Club Indie Film as scriptwriter and as an extra as well.

I focused more on the things I love doing instead of focusing on my weaknesses. Finding out the things I am good at made me enthusiastic about life again.

Intelligence is not only measured by how high one’s grades are or how well someone does in class. True intelligence is knowing who you are and loving every part of you.

It is knowing your strengths, skills, and talents and using them for righteous deeds—being an inspiration or a role model to people or even making the world a better a place.

I may not be smart with numbers, but I know one thing: we are all smart in our own ways. I am smart with words, and I use that gift wisely because I know that words have the power to either inspire people or destroy them.

 

This article was originally posted here: I’m Smart In My Own Way.

Hey 2017, Thanks.

“Hey, 2017! Thanks, you weren’t that shitty after all.”

You were a blast and I just want to thank you for these amazing surprises and discoveries as well as all the opportunities and risk I took during your reigning year:

  • January 2017: Started ABC’s Daily Journal 
    – Though I didn’t keep it up during the latter half of the year because my schedule and load work hindered me from updating, it was still fun (and tiring) to keep a journal, scrapbook style.

 

  • January 2017: Paper Towns Movie and Movie Soundtrack
    – I had a major hangover for this movie

 

  • January 2017: Me and Earl and the Dying Girl
    – “This is the movie that didn’t glamorize cancer. It’s beautiful. This is the movie that tells us life is full of unexpected turn of events and it is short. This is  the movie that left me in awe. It’s beautiful.” (Read my review here)

 

  • January 2017: “I Am Smart in My Own Way”
     – another article of mine got featured on candymag.com. (Read it here)

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#FILEDFunOnFleek Art Exhibit

 

For the past few months I’ve been sending some of my works to online magazines and websites to get my artworks, photographs and writings featured but no such luck came to me and all I received were emails saying I didn’t make the cut or nothing at all. Nevertheless, I didn’t let it hinder me from finding more opportunities to get my works out there and inspire people through my works.

Last Monday, November 6, I was stressed and in a hurry to compile all of my blockmates YouTube links for our Job Interview Activity for our Media and Information Literacy subject and send it to our professor by 5pm. Of course, like I anticipated it, some sent their link later than my deadline. After pouring my disappointment in our class group chat and while waiting for the others to send me their links, I decided to check my email and make a draft explaining and apologizing to our professor why I wasn’t able to send the complete list on time.

Tapping the mail icon on my ipad, I instantly saw two unread emails but something caught my attention, one was from an odd email address that is surely new to my eyes; it wasn’t from the usual email addresses I receive containing newsletters and updates. It was an email from marketing@filed.com.ph. My heart fluttered because I wasn’t expecting a reply. I sent my artworks to the team on the day of its deadline and I wasn’t even sure my works are worthy to be placed in an exhibit after not making the cut for Woman Create’s 365 Wonders planner and ALPAS Journal’s literary magazine.  And then I remembered ALPAS Journal’s email regarding my job application last summer and my submission for their second issue informing me that they won’t be able to move forward with my application and that they won’t be able to include my works in the upcoming issue of ALPAS Journal.

I tapped to read the whole email and while it was loading, I lowered my expectation and expected the worst. During those few seconds I said to myself, “Maybe this is another email informing me that my works didn’t make the cut, I am so used to rejection that I won’t be surprised if that email states that my artworks won’t be included in the art exhibit”

So the email finally loaded and as I read through the message, my jaw dropped. I stood my from my seat and spun around like Hermione during the Yule Ball scene in Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire after spending a wonderful night with Viktor Krum. I read the letter twice just to make sure and process all the details. Once I knew that I wasn’t dreaming and the email is legit saying that filed is happy to take care of the printing and inviting me to drop by the event to see my works displayed, I ran into the next room and asked my mom if I could go to Century City Mall in Makati to go to the event on Saturday. Her eyebrows knitted and I knew she was about to question my reasons since first, I have no idea where the venue is and second, she already has plans on Saturday. But her face lit up once I told her that Filed included my artworks for their Planner Launch Art Exhibit.

It was the day of the event and though I wanted to be a walk-in to register and listen to the inspiring and talented speakers who will give talks about business, freelance, branding, blogging and entrepreneurship, I sacrificed it and skipped it to attend my classes.

On our way to the event, we experienced a lot of bumps and bad luck. We had to go through severe traffic caused by road blocking for the ASEAN Summit 2017. It took us three hours to arrive in Makati Circle, from there we went walking around in circle trying to find a ride to Century City Mall.

 

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We arrived at the venue at 4:30. I instantly saw my visual artwork of Holland Roden. After taking a few pictures, I was kind of disappointed because we went through all that trouble just to see a miniature printed form of my artwork but then I saw my watercolor typography of a quote from Rainbow Rowell’s book, Eleanor and Park and my heart jumped seeing it and right beside it was the collage I made for our Contemporary Philippine Arts from the Regions class. Finally, at the very top right corner of the wall, I saw my newly edited artwork of Wonder Woman/Gal Gadot.  I was smiling from ear to ear seeing all four of my artworks displayed in an art exhibit.

It was the first time my artworks got included  in an art exhibit and I would definitely like to thank Filed for making one of my goals in life come true; getting my artworks displayed in art exhibit. It was an exhausting day but the heat, the traffic, the long walks and the pain of my aching legs were worth feeling the euphoria of seeing my artworks displayed in an art exhibit together with my fellow artists as we inspire and bring happiness to the attendees of the events through our artworks.

Farewell to Teen Wolf

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This weekend is the most heartbreaking weekend for fans of MTV’s hit TV Series, Teen Wolf. It’s time to say a final farewell to the beloved show.

Teen Wolf aired on MTV back in 2011 and to be honest, I wasn’t part of the fandom since the very beginning because during that time, I was too busy obsessing over Tween Magazines and Disney Channel TV Shows to give any care about a show called Teen Wolf. Gods, I want to slap my 12-year-old self, she’s missing a lot in life. But that doesn’t mean that I am not a true fan because being a true fan means you’re with the fandom until the very end.

The show already finished airing Season 3B and on its way for a 4th season when I decided to watch the series. The curious fangirl in me wanted to know why this show is becoming so popular. What makes it so intriguing for viewers? Why the hell is everyone going crazy over this actor named Dylan O’Brien and his character, Stiles Stilinski?  It was all over my Tumblr dashboard that I even started shipping Stydia  before I watched Teen Wolf. That’s the impact the show has on me.

Eventually, I became part of the fandom. I became a die-hard fan for this show about a teenage boy’s journey as he navigates his life as a high schooler and a newly bitten werewolf (As if high school isn’t difficult enough).  I became hooked by the end of the pilot episode. I spent the whole summer of 2014 binge watching season one to three and I immediately fell in love with every sarcastic remark Stiles gives, with every outfit Lydia wears, with every story arc and with the bond the characters share.

Teen Wolf gave us six thrilling seasons in the last six years. While some were definitely well crafted, well written and well though of, some seasons—especially the last few were kind of made just for the sake of having viewers. The writing became dull and choppy. Nevertheless, the show is amazing as a whole. Below is my official ranking for all the seasons of the series.

Ranking Teen Wolf Seasons

  1. Teen Wolf Season 3A
  2. Teen Wolf Season 3B
  3. Teen Wolf Season 2
  4. Teen Wolf Season 6A
  5. Teen Wolf Season 1
  6. Teen Wolf Season 6B
  7. Teen Wolf Season 4
  8. Teen Wolf Season 5

When Jeff Davis announced that Season 6 is the last season of Teen Wolf back in San Diego Comic Con 2016, it was like a bomb thrown at us (the fans) and we inevitably can’t dodge it. I knew that one way or another the show will have to end but I didn’t expect it to be so soon. I expected the show to reach 7 or 8 seasons at most. The news was hard to process as I continue to watch the trailer for Season 6A and the only thing running through my mind is that how can this be the final season already?

I’m not prepared.

Nobody is.

It’s been a year since Jeff announced the tragic news and now, we’re only a few hours away from the series finale. THE SERIES FINALE, YOU GUYS! (Curls in the corner of my room and cry my eyes out).

Teen Wolf will always have a soft spot in my heart. It is one of the TV shows that made me realize that I want to work on a TV set/production someday. The only thing that breaks my heart is that I won’t get to experience working on the set of Teen Wolf because by the time I graduate college, it’s over. It’s done. It’s finished. I feel so downcast knowing that I won’t be able to work with the whole cast and crew of Teen Wolf but hearing that they’re planning to have a spin-off of the show gives me hope that I might still be able to experience working in the Teen Wolf universe but still, working for the original is better.

((This might sound embarrassing or inspiring or weird but I already wrote my own story for any additional Teen Wolf seasons. It started out as an idea for a fan fiction but I realized my story can be a good story arc for a 12 episode season. Is it weird that I added original characters and one of them is a direwolf?))

I never want Teen Wolf to end but, alas, all good things must come to an end, right? Looking at it, I am thankful that they still gave us one final season and didn’t immediately cancel the show without having to say a proper farewell.

I am not yet ready to say goodbye to a TV Series that made feel like I am part of something, like I am there—fighting alongside the pack, solving mysteries with Stiles and Lydia, saving Beacon Hills from different threats and just plain enjoying fun moments with the pack and as a resident of the town known as the beacon for all things supernatural.

Please tune in to the series finale of Teen Wolf, even though I know it’s going to be heartbreaking to watch, I’ll stay with the pack until no matter what.

 

 

 

All Time Low: The Young Renegades Tour (Manila 2017)

The first time All Time Low set foot on Philippine soil  and performed in front of thousand Filipino Hustlers was in year 2011. Their second time around was two years ago, August 12, 2015. It was heartbreaking to know that my favorite band will perform (together with The Main as an opening act) at Mall of Asia Arena in Pasay City and I won’t get to see them. Academics, killer and exhausting practice for our Sabayang Pagbigkas prevented me from going. But now, it’s their third time here in the Philippines and I didn’t miss it for the world.

The concert was part of my 18th birthday celebration. Originally, I was supposed to go to Coldplay: A Head full of Dreams Tour but sadly, the concert tickets were sold out even before 2017 came. April 4, 2017 was the day I promised myself that as long as I have money and time, I won’t be #TeamBahay (a term used by Filipinos when you’re not going to an event) for any concerts ever again. My social media accounts were blowing up with Coldplay AHFOD Tour in Manila posts. I never felt such jealousy in my life so when news broke that All Time Low, my fave band is performing in Manila for the third time around, I grabbed the chance and had one of the best nights of my life.

Short prologue prior to concert night, I was anxious (as fuck) because academics kinda got in the way. The night before, I found out that backpacks were not allowed inside the arena, this caused me to ditch my backpack and opt for a small shoulder bag. Thinking about it, this is kind of hassle to my part since I’ll be attending classes before heading to the arena, meaning I have to play Hunger Games with my school stuff—which supplies do I have to ditch and which stuff do I bring with me. Next, I need to get my registration form from the UST SHS Office but office hours resumes at 1:15 pm and my class ends at 12 noon, so I have to wait a little longer before I leave uni. I also have PE class on Tuesdays, from 3-5 pm. It was supposed to be our first swimming class for the semester and I’m nervous about missing out on swimming lessons and techniques. I decided to skip swimming class even though the show starts 7:30 pm and my PE class ends at 5 pm because traffic in the city is unpredictable. But God is good all the time and all my worries went out the window when it was announced that classes were suspended because of monsoon rains.

I arrived at the venue at 3 PM and it was already packed with Hustlers, hustling their way inside the arena. (Yes, pun intended). You can easily identify the concert goers judging from the outfits—denim jackets, denim jackets everywhere!

It was already past 5 PM when I decided to get in line and holyyyy it was damn long line. It was almost seven when I got into the arena and arrived on my seat. My first thought when I sat down was, ‘Wow the show haven’t started yet and I am already broke’. I bought an All Time Low light up crown and the official poster of The Young Renegades Tour and you guys know what? I am broke but happy.

At exactly, 7:30 PM, the band, As It Is came out on stage and started the show. To be honest, I wasn’t really familiar with the band. I’ve heard some of their songs once and that’s it. I really wished it was The Maine performing up there or even Tegan and Sara but after seeing them perform live, they made me think otherwise. I promised myself that as soon as I got home, I’m gonna download their songs and rock out to the tune of their music.

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It was a long wait before All Time Low finally took the stage. The lights went out, the screen on stage started showing visuals, the band came out on stage and then Last Young Renegade’s tune erupted and everyone went wild.

All Time Low Young Renegades Tour Set list:

  • Last Young Renegade
  • Damned If I Do Ya (Damned If I Don’t)
  • Runaways
  • Backseat Serenade
  • Dirty Laundry
  • Nice2Knou
  • Missing You
  • Cinderblock Garden
  • Vegas
  • Something’s Gotta Give
  • Therapy
  • Weightless
  • Life of the Party
  • Lost in Stereo
  • Good Times
  • Kids In The Dark
  • Drugs & Candy
  • Dear Maria, Count Me In

When Last Young Renegade was being played, I felt like I was on cloud nine. I was filled with so much euphoria all I can think about that time was how I am very lucky to see my favorite band live. It was exhilarating living in the moment, dancing and singing with the band and fellow hustlers after a lot of things tried to prevent me from going.

‘I am here. I can’t believe I’m really here’

Confession time: I almost teared up when Therapy was played. Therapy is one of my go to songs when I feel sad, alone and when nothing feels right anymore and hearing Alex Gaskarth play it live, it’s really emotional–it’s sentimental.

I really wished they played ‘Somewhere in Neverland’, ‘If These Sheets Were the States’, ‘Afterglow’, ‘Chemistry’ and ‘Ground Control’ (and low key hoping Tegan & Sara would come out and surprise us) but there’s always a next time sooo wink wink

When Alex announced that they only have three more songs left, I was like: ‘Wait, what? It’s almost over? That can’t be!’ I guess it’s true that time flies by so fast when you’re having a good time. Alas, all good things must come to an end.

The show concluded with everyone singing Dear Maria Count Me In at the top of our lungs and being showered with confetti. And I. Want. More. The band didn’t have an encore, but one thing’s for sure, when they come back in Manila for a fourth show, oh my, Dear Maria, count me in.

 

HAIM: Not your Mainstream Girl Group Musicians

If I would be asked to choose between Fifth Harmony and HAIM, I’d choose HAIM any time of the day.

Wait, who is this HAIM I speak of?

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HAIM is an American pop rock band from Los Angeles. The band consists of three sisters Este, Danielle and Alana Haim who are joined on stage by drummer Dash Hutton. The three sisters were active since 2007 but it was just last year when I fell in love with their amazing style of music, thanks to John Green’s movie adaptation of Paper Towns.

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Being Yourself—and Different—Is Okay

Hey guys! Remember my post “When You’re Still Trying To Find Your Purpose”? I told you that it was my second article  featured on candymag.com and I decided to post the first one here on my wordpress blog.

This is an article I made for our Journalism class and I decided to send it without really expecting to be featured because well, the website says, “If you’re lucky, you might get featured in our website” and if luck is a magnet, I’m made of wood,  but I crossed my fingers, so here it is.

Reading the title, you readers will already have an idea what my article is about but nevertheless, I’m still here to talk about a very important aspect in life that we should all be.

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Credits to Trixie Ison of candymag.com

We can’t deny how much messed up the world is and how society is never pleased. In the world we’re living in, why are we so afraid of being different and being ourselves in front of everybody despite the numerous quotes we read and hear every day about just being ourselves? One word: Fear. We’re afraid of not being accepted by society and we fear judgement. Let’s face the ugly truth, society tells us to be ourselves then they judge us.

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